So yesterday I sat in church, for what I will be honest is the first time in months to talk with old friends and have laughs.
I didn't go as well as one would hope but it wasn't horrible. My home church and the on place that I should feel safe just isn't what it should/used to be. I mean with all the controversy that is surrounding it, it is hard to consider it home. I choose to think that what is being done is false and it will all be sorted out in the end but until then one may never know....
Anyway...I am good life is okay and I will write more later.
Monday, July 30, 2007
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
The Changes Keep Coming
The changes keep coming and coming. If I sit down and really think about it, it is hard to put my finger on it, but at some point over the past two or three years everything has changed and that has been rough to say the least.
Eric wrote about it the other day and his page and he is right which I don't say often so if you are reading this you had better mark the day. All of those 'old' friends that seem to be around all of the time are slowing sliding off into their own lives and for some life hasn't turned out quite like we all thought that it would. I mean I work as a receptionist at a trailer factory.
Eric works at Grace. I have to be honest in saying I have no idea where Bryon is now and now matter how large our differences I do still worry about him from time to time and wonder how his world is turning out.
Here is the thing. I often wonder what ever happened to many of my friends over time but as life has started to completely evolve there is more and more of a gap between who we are and where we are headed. I dare say that our religious views, political views, relationship views and general views on life have all evolved in some very different directions for some point. We may share some values but that doesn't make up cookie cutters of each other. There are some things that will forever bind up together if even in the past. Marching band, Road trips, bad dates, good dates, nights out on the town, an occasional smoke with friends, and drink, all these things that were done when we were much younger have worked toward making us who we are today no matter how much we don't like it.
Part of me does miss the 'good old days' if you will but the rest of me is really looking forward to life that is out ahead of me still. I am still looking for another job and am at a point where I welcome change even if it doesn't come in the way that I thought it would or I feel that should have. You never know what life has out there in front of you and for the most part it isn't what you thought it would be. I never talk to anyone who says ohhh yes this is exactly how I thought all of this would turn out and the path that it took to get here was smooth and marked.
I am only 25 and I know that there are so many more changes out ahead of me that will make things very different over time. Sooner or later I will have a new job, again, and I will welcome the change but I will also be scared to death when it happens. I do my best to be sure that I am not TOO comfortable with the things around me because if one thing stays the say it is that everything around me keeps changing.
Eric wrote about it the other day and his page and he is right which I don't say often so if you are reading this you had better mark the day. All of those 'old' friends that seem to be around all of the time are slowing sliding off into their own lives and for some life hasn't turned out quite like we all thought that it would. I mean I work as a receptionist at a trailer factory.
Eric works at Grace. I have to be honest in saying I have no idea where Bryon is now and now matter how large our differences I do still worry about him from time to time and wonder how his world is turning out.
Here is the thing. I often wonder what ever happened to many of my friends over time but as life has started to completely evolve there is more and more of a gap between who we are and where we are headed. I dare say that our religious views, political views, relationship views and general views on life have all evolved in some very different directions for some point. We may share some values but that doesn't make up cookie cutters of each other. There are some things that will forever bind up together if even in the past. Marching band, Road trips, bad dates, good dates, nights out on the town, an occasional smoke with friends, and drink, all these things that were done when we were much younger have worked toward making us who we are today no matter how much we don't like it.
Part of me does miss the 'good old days' if you will but the rest of me is really looking forward to life that is out ahead of me still. I am still looking for another job and am at a point where I welcome change even if it doesn't come in the way that I thought it would or I feel that should have. You never know what life has out there in front of you and for the most part it isn't what you thought it would be. I never talk to anyone who says ohhh yes this is exactly how I thought all of this would turn out and the path that it took to get here was smooth and marked.
I am only 25 and I know that there are so many more changes out ahead of me that will make things very different over time. Sooner or later I will have a new job, again, and I will welcome the change but I will also be scared to death when it happens. I do my best to be sure that I am not TOO comfortable with the things around me because if one thing stays the say it is that everything around me keeps changing.
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