Sunday, April 20, 2008

Time

It has been a LONG time since I have written anything here. There are those who never read this myself included. I use this area to write what I am thinking or feeling and I haven't done anything for a long time so here is an abbreviated catch up.

Rob and I are still together but to be honest it is touch and go as time goes by. I hope that things will work out but at the moment the questions seem to come at a much faster rate than the answers. Our relationship has a lot of issues but it doesn't mean it is over but I am struggling. We are coming up on 5 years and commitment is minimal at best which makes me believe that perhaps it isn't going like I would like it to.

My faith is struggling and that is a huge understatement. I would love to say that my faith is at the top of my list but it isn't and it hasn't been in years. I miss the relationships from church and from other believers and it isn't that I don't believe in God it is that I don't know where I want/need it to react with my 'life.'

My job is over. In late Jan. I was laid off from RVME d/b/a Ameri-Camp and it was an earth shattering day in my life I won't lie. Not having a job has created a lot of issues for me personally. I miss working and I will work again soon but the job hunt is very difficult and with the job market in the tank there isn't anything more I could be doing I think.

Sigh