Hmm

Okay so I am not so great at keeping this thing up to date. I know that I'm not sure sometimes even why I keep it up and running. I started my blog just over a year ago and it has has had many different moments on it over that time. I have started and ended more than one relationship. I have started and ended one relationship many times. I have complained about work, written about church functions or church problems, I have vented anger and I have rejoiced. Isn't it amazing what going through and reading your own words can do to make you realize that even when you are down you are okay and life will sooner or later go on. A year later I am glad that I have this place to communicate with others even if those others may only be my cousin and few close college friends that have the web link.

In other news I finally got a job and a place to live, it isn't however how I planned all along for it to be. I am living with my grandma and grandpa Bales, my other grandparents don't know because they will feel that I somehow choose my moms parents over them and there will be a lot of drama that goes with it when all of that comes out.

I work for Marsh (I know, I know) I will be their assistant office manager in a few weeks, but I start training on Monday and I am so excited. I get a pay raise, a new name tag (not a big deal to some but at Marsh this is important), and to learn how to do all of the office functions of the store and I get health insurance again. The hours will be a bit crazy for a while but I am sure I will get used to it.

I finally used the L-word and meant it when I was talking to someone who means the world to me and I am so happy that I did. Was I scared and did I nearly have a panic attack, yes, but in the end it was just what both of us needed to know from each other. It is nice to be wanted and to be loved by someone who doesn't care about all of the family crap and can help make you sane while you are trying to deal with it alone. This isn't to say that the family crap doesn't get on their nerves but they know that they don't have to live with it every day, well at least not yet anyway, wink wink.

I am doing good and am looking forward to the next week. Everyone have a great night.

Its been a while

I don't really have news to post here but I thought I would create some form of an update for those of you that read this.

I got new glasses which are nice becuase I can see what it is I am doing, a nice change of pact I must admit. I went to my aunt and uncles and used their much faster much nicer internet conection to get my new class set up. I did get and A in Stats class.

I am not moving to Fort Wayne right now which stinks but I am sure I will be okay.

Now What do You do with This

Some times I realize that God has a such a sense of humor that makes you sit back and laugh and/or roll your eyes when you know that this once at least this once God was right. I still don't have a place to live in Fort Wayne which is frustrating but I am sure that I will have a place sooner or later.

I know that moving there will be good for me and for my family although I know that there are family members that I will miss even more than I do now. I miss Staci already I got to see her last night which was fun and funny at the same time. I got to sit across the room most literally and chat with her online. I hate to say it but aunt and uncle are two of the fakest people that I have ever met.

My cousin made a comment that we were twin separated at birth. There is the whole age difference thing and the whole two different birthdays thing but we are so much alike that at times it is scary to say the least. There is a lot more to say here but I will make sure to cover it later.