Friday, August 19, 2005

Hmm

Okay so I am not so great at keeping this thing up to date. I know that I'm not sure sometimes even why I keep it up and running. I started my blog just over a year ago and it has has had many different moments on it over that time. I have started and ended more than one relationship. I have started and ended one relationship many times. I have complained about work, written about church functions or church problems, I have vented anger and I have rejoiced. Isn't it amazing what going through and reading your own words can do to make you realize that even when you are down you are okay and life will sooner or later go on. A year later I am glad that I have this place to communicate with others even if those others may only be my cousin and few close college friends that have the web link.

In other news I finally got a job and a place to live, it isn't however how I planned all along for it to be. I am living with my grandma and grandpa Bales, my other grandparents don't know because they will feel that I somehow choose my moms parents over them and there will be a lot of drama that goes with it when all of that comes out.

I work for Marsh (I know, I know) I will be their assistant office manager in a few weeks, but I start training on Monday and I am so excited. I get a pay raise, a new name tag (not a big deal to some but at Marsh this is important), and to learn how to do all of the office functions of the store and I get health insurance again. The hours will be a bit crazy for a while but I am sure I will get used to it.

I finally used the L-word and meant it when I was talking to someone who means the world to me and I am so happy that I did. Was I scared and did I nearly have a panic attack, yes, but in the end it was just what both of us needed to know from each other. It is nice to be wanted and to be loved by someone who doesn't care about all of the family crap and can help make you sane while you are trying to deal with it alone. This isn't to say that the family crap doesn't get on their nerves but they know that they don't have to live with it every day, well at least not yet anyway, wink wink.

I am doing good and am looking forward to the next week. Everyone have a great night.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

glad you got a job cuz. love ya much. and as for getting together...well, if we don't get on that we'll lose the chance...and holy cow, it's coming so fast and there's so much to be done before then. i can't believe thomas moves down monday. well, talk to you soon.