A New Job

So I have a job now. I guess I should be happy and about to jump out of my skin yet I am not. I am glad that I will get a pay check at the end of each week which will be nice since I haven't had one in nearly eight weeks now but at the same time I don't really want the job that I am being offered. I really want to live in Fort Wayne and that is where my love is and that is where my heart is going to be for a long time. We are looking at wedding dates yes you read that right but we can't really choose one until I am living closer to town and have a job that will allow more complete communication between the two of us. I know that it is going to be hard over the next few weeks yet I also know that there is no way to make this work long term. We have spent two years in two different cities that are not far away yet seem to be a world away when it comes to really getting to spend time with one another.

I have also thought about the idea of just calling it off and letting bygones be bygones because I don't know for sure where I am headed and I sure the heck don't know where he is headed yet after two years that doesn't seem to be fair either. I am torn in two at the moment because of these choices and have no idea what on earth to do about the idea of moving away or even finding a job. There are so many ways to go with all of this information.

So hi ho hi ho its off to work I go so here goes nothing at least for now.

Wow What A Long Six Weeks

The last six weeks have been interesting at best. Unemployment has not been good to me at all. I don't like not haveing to get up and go somewhere every morning, I don't like not haveing a place of my own, and possibly most of all I don't like the fact that there is no pay check to be had. I am looking don't get me wrong I have averaged about six interviews a week but I have not landed the job yet. I have yet another one tomorrow and hopefully something comes of it.

I have done the staffing adgency thing and I have done the stalk a job tackic and still I am empty handed. This is the point where many would expect me to say that I am sorry that I left Marsh but I am not. I know that there are jobs out there and I know that there is a way to get a job and I just haven't found that one that I am supposed to have.

Now on from the job front, last weekend was my grandmas side of the family reunion and it was a zoo at best. Those people drive me nuts and they all think that the things that I do are so awful that there is no way that I am ever going to be anything. Acutally what they are saying is that I won't be like them and they seem to think that is a bad thing. I know that I never want to be like them at all the only real thing that they have going for them is money and although money is nice there are so many more important things that must be delt with, maybe that is why not having a job isn't driving me crazy but it is starting to get to me. I just want to be able to pay my bills and make ends meet.

In other news at the reunion I got to hang out with my cousin because we ran away from all of the freaks that drive us crazy and talk and laugh a lot. It would be a safe bet that the people that she goes to school with think I am a nut job and wonder what kind of family she has but it was nice.

I still live my mom's mom because it aids in me keeping my sanity if I were to move back into my mom's house I am pretty sure that I would come 100% unglued because of the craziness that mom insists on putting herself in.

Well everyone if you still read this let me know what is up in your life and I will talk to you all soon.