So I have a job now. I guess I should be happy and about to jump out of my skin yet I am not. I am glad that I will get a pay check at the end of each week which will be nice since I haven't had one in nearly eight weeks now but at the same time I don't really want the job that I am being offered. I really want to live in Fort Wayne and that is where my love is and that is where my heart is going to be for a long time. We are looking at wedding dates yes you read that right but we can't really choose one until I am living closer to town and have a job that will allow more complete communication between the two of us. I know that it is going to be hard over the next few weeks yet I also know that there is no way to make this work long term. We have spent two years in two different cities that are not far away yet seem to be a world away when it comes to really getting to spend time with one another.
I have also thought about the idea of just calling it off and letting bygones be bygones because I don't know for sure where I am headed and I sure the heck don't know where he is headed yet after two years that doesn't seem to be fair either. I am torn in two at the moment because of these choices and have no idea what on earth to do about the idea of moving away or even finding a job. There are so many ways to go with all of this information.
So hi ho hi ho its off to work I go so here goes nothing at least for now.
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