Fewer And Fewer

Fewer and fewer are my posts here....long since past is the idea that keep the world if anyone out there does read this informed about my life is fun and exciting. This would also mean that I have new information to share with everyone.

So here are some of the highlights of the last three weeks.

I am still at Ameri-Camp. I have had a couple of interviews in Fort Wayne and I am hoping that they will pan out. My job here is growing on me but the drive and need to feel like I am doing more in my field is important to me and I am not sure that I can get all of those things here. I am about to qualify for health insurance which I can hardly wait for but I knew it would be a while before I could get any real coverage and now that it is finally approaching it is a huge relief.

Several disputes with friends over the last few weeks have caused me great stress. It is hard for me to develop relationships as it is and for some reason with out a bit of help it is easy for me to ruin them without the idea of thinking twice on the issue. Friends that I have known for only a short time have had to take a lot of crap from me and seem to be dealing with it a whole lot better than I ever would. I know that I am a pain in the butt about 90% of the time and that there are those who feel and would tell you that it should be nearly 190% of the time.

Tonight I am going to stay with some friends who moved away a few months ago and it has made me sad to know that they are so far away. The drive from work is only about an hour but from home it is nearly two. The have a one-year-old and another one on the way here very soon. It will be another boy and it will be nice although I will stick my need to stay away from babies and not handle him, which Heather seems to be dealing with okay for now, we will see how she does once he is born and I still won't handle him. Deven was nearly 6 months old before they could convince me to hold him for just a minute while sitting down. I know there are women out there who love babies and want to have hundreds of them and I am here to tell you that I am not one of those women.

Family is the same...driving me crazy and not getting any better.

I would be amiss to not say something about Anna Nicole Smith and her death yesterday. I am sorry that she died without ever getting whatever it is she was looking for. I know she was famous and she lived in Bahama, which would be enough for me but there was clearly something more that she was looking for and I don't think that she ever found it.

So for now I am off but once again I will attempt to make more entries here.