Today I Sailed On

Last night was a different kind of night for me. I didn't really like where it all headed or how it played out in my mind but it was a good thing. There were so many different things that could have taken place once I had a chance to really process but in the end it all ended up strangely peaceful for me. I am still dealing with changing currents that I have called my life for the last few months. I have so many different things set before and yet I don't know which one to pick up and run with. I have so many feelings and there is no real place to put them. I know there will come a time when I will know but when that comes will I be able to deal with them and all that it initials.

At the end of nearly every one of Christopher Columbus' journals that he wrote as he sailed across the ocean to what he believed were the West Indies he would conclude the days problems the phrase today I sailed on. So I took this approach to my day and it really helped me. Today I sailed on. The ship's rudder broke yet today I sailed on, the waves came crashing down but today I sailed on, the winds pushed me off course still today I sailed on, wow how powerful is that. Life is like that I think in many ways. No matter what happens there must be time to sail on and push though. I suppose I'm in a time of pushing but that doesn't make it easy.

So today I walked on. It was not easy and there is still a mix of emotions running around in my head that I am not quite sure how to deal with because I simply refuse to do so yet I know that there will be a time and a place when it will no longer be an option and it will be more or a necessity to deal with them all. I plan on talking to several good friends over the next few days and putting some of this to rest before I go crazy or drive everyone around me crazy in the process.

School has been good for me and allows me a release that I don't get at work or other places. It gives me a chance to remember that I can do anything that I set my mind to if I simply set down and do it will all I have. I am still struggling through this class but it is a good thing and I now know more about accounting than I ever had so here goes nothing.

Have a good day!